Dear You,
You broke my heart more than I ever thought possible. I loved and I tried, and I loved some more and I tried some more, but nothing ever warmed your heart once she walked in to your life. Even though you knew my history and how much I had been hurt, you still turned out to be just another guy who made me feel like I am not good enough. Why did you hurt me like that? Why couldn't you let me go a long time ago instead of being selfish and hanging on to me?
You never know what you will be missing. You think you have it all now but someday you won't, and this I can pretty much guarantee. I wonder if you will ever think of me. I wonder if you will ever realize truly what you let go. I doubt it because you are ice cold. But still a small part of me inside hopes that one day you finally get it. Of course by then it will be too late. At that point I will have my silent vindication.
Thanks to you every day is a chore. I choose sleep over enjoying life. I cry at a moment's notice, I isolate myself from everyone. Thanks to you, I question my worth to men and often wonder what is wrong with me. Thanks to you, I have this feeling of hopelessness that I cannot seem to get rid of. Thanks to you, I have been praying every day to start feeling better. I realize that I give you a lot of power, but don't worry someday I will take it back.
Someday you will be a distant memory. Someday I will think back to what it was like to be with you, and wonder why I stuck it out for so long. Someday I will think of you and wonder why I found you so attractive. Someday I will think of what it would be like to be intimate with you again and it will make me want to vomit.
I love you, but I hate you. Karma has a way of coming back around, and when it finds its way to you, I hope you think of me.
Thank you for breaking my heart.
Goodbye sweetheart....goodbye you asshole.
