Busy Year

It's that time again, back to school for both my son and I. It's going to be a busy year for me. I'm hoping to be transferred to another office at the end of the year when my bosses retire and the new administration comes in. This will hopefully result in a new position for me with more money. I have to keep communication open with my boss to see that it happens.

School starts in a couple of weeks. I got two out of three course requirements and I'll have a lot of work to do. I'm so NOT looking forward to it.

My son is a senior this year, and also involved in two sports....football and then baseball in the spring. So in between running him to practice and games, I need to set up a plan for him next year. Since he has no idea what he wants to do and no motivation to figure it out, it will be up to me to lay something out for him. If for nothing else, he will need to go to school full time in order to stay on my health insurance, or get a full time job and pay for his own.

In order to do either of those things, he'll need a car. Which means getting him to study for his permit and take the test, then take him out driving. All the while I will be putting money away to buy him a cheap yet hopefully reliable car. There's no chance of him being able to get one for himself since he won't be able to get a job until next June, after baseball season.

Aside from all that, I still have the goal to lose weight and be in better shape, which means continuing to fit workouts in. I'm getting tired just thinking about all that needs to be done. One step at a time, I suppose. This year is going to go too fast. I must find time to enjoy my son, which is at the top of the list.

She's Got the Look

I was looking for some shows to tape on my DVR (as if I don't watch enough shows as it is) and I came across a show about aspiring models, so I taped it. I watched it today and the premise of the show is finding the next hot model over 35. As I was looking at the women who were all beautiful, I couldn't help but thinking they look older than I do. Many of them were about my age (38) and some were in their early
40's yet I felt like I was looking at women that were older than me, even though there was nothing to indicate that they looked 'old', if that makes any sense.

That got me to thinking about myself. I feel as though I look younger than what I am. But do I really? Or do people see me as a late thirtysomething? I have a couple of fine lines (a.k.a. wrinkles) that I wish would go away but for the most part I don't see myself as someone approaching 40. I wonder if others see me that way?

Today's Random Thoughts

Random Thoughts I Had Today:

~ If you're going to pretend to be sick, do it around everyone. Not just the important people.

~ The more you tailgate me, the slower I go.

~ Discipline yourself so others don't have to.

~ I hope I can go to tomorrow's birthday party and not have any cake. I don't deserve cake.

~ I like to make people laugh.

~ I'm sorry that I had to listen to you complain during my break about things you cannot change. I said: "Oh well what can you do..." She says: "Complain about it". YOU JUST DID.

~ I guess Justin Beiber was in town tonight. Whoop-di-doo.

~ Why haven't I typed my blog from work yet? I always have good stuff when I'm at work.

~ There's always that one random sock in every clean load of laundry. Frustrating.

~ Why am I always tired until it's actually time to go to sleep?

Eating For Two

No, I'm not pregnant. But I think my stomach thinks that I am because I am on week 2 of non-stop hunger. I can think of one time in this two weeks that I was actually full. Other than that, no matter what I eat I barely walk away satisfied. On a good note, I've started working out again....I hate that I stopped. I will hate even more if my appetite cancels out my workouts. I have to figure something out.

Something Old, Something New

I can't say that I've been insanely busy. Just not present ...here that is. Nothing extraordinary has happened since my sucky birthday which got me to thinking last night how short life seems. I'm no longer the kid anymore at work (although I am the youngest in my small office) and I don't do much of anything except the same routine stuff every day. I like to say I'm a good mom but I don't think I show my appreciation and love to my son nearly as much as I should considering what a great, well behaved kid he is. And I don't take time to do really big things for myself. My last real vacation where I actually went somewhere, stayed in a hotel and saw some sights was years and years ago.

So I've enlisted a couple girlfriends to at least think about going on a vacation early next year. I want to see something I haven't seen. I want to stay in a nice hotel and pamper myself and not think about my diet. I don't really feel like flying, but I will if I have to. Also having something huge like this is a good motivation to take some pounds off. I'm excited about the possibilities.

It's My Party...

...and I'll cry if I want to. Worst Birthday EVER.

38 and Feeling Great!

I turn 38 today. Happy birthday to me! I feel kinda lame saying that, as birthdays were never a big deal to me. But what the heck, I made it another year. That's an accomplishment in itself! It's been a couple weeks since I've written and I'm still on the never ending quest of getting healthy. Ask me how successful I've been? No, don't ask. But here I am at 38 now officially and I won't stop trying. I can't. I'm not getting any younger. Obvi.

In honor of my birthday, I vow to be positive about myself and about my age. I will never stop trying to better myself, no matter how many times I fall off the horse. That is the very least I could do for myself.